Pain

My heart is bleeding. I feel hurt. Heartache. I'm suffering. I can't stay away from my love for such a time so long like this. It's not fair. I want scream. There is a knot in my chest... it's so damned worse than last night... need freedom. Freedom of love. Seems like if someone had pushed a little sword in and played with it. It's torturingly. Deadly, painly and fuckin' awful. It's horrible, kind of pain that don't go so fast which you wish. Make it go, love.

Magic afternoon

Bad night, bad dreams, but surprisingly a quite good afternoon. Today I felt a soft wind, kind of a breeze, in my face and remembered you. It was intimate, comfortable, sweet, full of peace and tenderness. Like your lips on mine. My hands in your face. Our bodies and souls turned in one. Today I could see you smiling at me, laughing heartfully and freely. And, I dont't know how, I know you could felt me too, today. In the sunset, I'm almost sure. Or when night falls and the sky change to a black tapestry with sparkling holes made by curious angels (I told you this story once). Or, who knows, you felt me at sametime, in a fierce, hot and fresh air, while sun kisses you creamy skin. It doesn't matter, in fact, the time when it occurried. What matter is that this afternoon was a touch of magic, a touch of love. A touch of you.

Sad night

I'm sad. I need someone to talk, but you are not here. Where are my friends? Maybe sleeping. It doesn't matter, I need one of them, just one. Or my love. Everyone is gone. I'm alone, and this night is so cold and lonely and full of sorrow... I wish my dear now, by my side. I'm so helplessly today, and I wonder why. I need someone to take care of me. Well, I have one, but I need this person close to me. I need feel me loved, special, safe, happy, warm, desired, complete. I'm so unhappy today, so empty and icily... I need be hotted by someone... one that love me as much as I love back... I'm suffering, honey, 'cause I can't feel your love. I'm feeling so unwanted in this whole day... so shy... These days have been hard without you, love. More 'cause an apparent lack of interest, or attention, of who I like so pretty much, I don't know what might be. It doesn't seems to matter, after all. Well, I'll keep living through this awful night, though. I hope that tomorrow be a better day, so. Still miss you, my lover...

Missing you

I want dream with you, but the dream never come. I want breath your essence, but you aren't here. I'm so lost without you that I can't feel the warmth of the day when you stay so far away from me. I know you love me, and know myself too much to don't see that I fall in love with you. I say I fall in love 'cause I do this thing every day. I'm a passionate woman, and you, my dear, are extremely responsive to my passion. This is gonna accurate my senses about sensible feelings like love. For Zeus, I can't support your absence of my presence for so long time, sweetheart! A few days ago I catch myself doing a bloody foolish thing: I've counting days to see you. Aw, this is awful... but I can't stop it, and I do this again and again. What a crazy love do to you... Talking about crazy, honey, I'm going to be almost insane if I will not touch you, feel you, heat you, be heated by your arms and your kisses... in no longer time, little dog. My own body ache with love, desire, raw passion, need, urgence, miss, cold. And it's all your fault. Yeah. You make my heart stop a beat and beat like mad seconds later with your smile. You make me feel so sweet with your mild brown-storm eyes. You make me feel hot inside when you touch me like just you know. You make my soul shake with your words of love and soft, lovely actions. You make me feel so amazing things that I can't describe... Well, I know I'm awesome and incredible and perfect (and modest), but you make me feel special and loved and almost a goddess in a way that only you can do. You make me feel like if I really can love someone without fear or regrets. And I've found out I can. You.

I can't stop thinking about you. Thinking in you. Sweet, is cold here. C'mon, stay with me. Stay with me every time in this confused life. Stay with me when I need, and when I don't. Stay with me beyond the pressions. Stay with me and share your life with me. Share your body, soul, plans, dreams, joys, sorrows, smiles, laughts, tears, tensions, love, heart. Give yourself, with no restrictions, to me. 'Cause I want you. 'Cause I wish you. 'Cause I love you. And you love me back. I hope the same intense way. I hope. And love. And wait for you. This wait is going to kill me, honey! Come back fast, so I can turn those brilliant dreams in real ones.